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Thoughts and Dreams of Aaron Schmidt

This is the online journal of Aaron Schmidt where he records his thoughts (when they seem relevant) and his dreams (when he can remember them).

01 December 2004 Screaming baby

I had horrible nightmare last night. I don't remember much, only the ending.

I was standing outside by the side of the road. It was daytime and nothing in the scene was scary in anyway. A familiar car was sitting by the curb.

As I approached the car I noticed that the frontseat passenger looked like me but he was a lot smaller. In fact, it was a baby with my face. In the backseat sat my father and like the baby, he looked exactly like me.

They were both staring at me intently, these two aaron's of a different age. I reeled back in horror and all of sudden I felt the urge to scream well within me.

Not in fear or in pain ... but in expression. I wanted to scream to make sure I was alive.

So I let a great bellow come forth from deep within me.

AahhhHhhh ... AahhhHhhh !

The faces continued their dreadful stare.

Louder this time!

AAAAAAAAAAAH ... AAAAAAAAAAAH !!!

And then I felt somone shaking me and I awoke with my eyes wide open and I was screaming out loud!

AAaahhhhH ... AAaahhhhH !!!

"Love, what's wrong?!? What's wrong?!"
Aurélie was there, beside me.
"It's ok, it's ok, stop screaming."

I stopped screaming and I smiled.

I felt alive.

04 November 2004 Nothing wrong with me

[bass x4]

Woke up last night with demons in my head
The room's so cold, and someone's in my bed
They creep inside, warn me I'll be dead
In 20 years and 20 days I'll be floating in the ...

Red inside, what's with all these fuckin' eyes?

[bass x1]

Keep your lies, give me the chance to feel surprised.

[bass x1]

There's nothing wrong with may
I just need air to breathe

and another day to stay alive.

[bass x2]

One look, one touch, she's rolling in my mind
All I want is too much, I need to redefine.
One touch, one kiss, she's rolling in my bed
If I don't stop my evil ways, I'll be floating in the ...

Red inside, what's with all these fuckin' eyes?

[bass x1]

Keep your lies, give me the chance to feel surprised.

[bass x1]

There's nothing wrong with may
I just want one more day,
another day to stay alive.

[bass x4]

[bass x2]

They fed it all to me ... and now I serve it

[bass x2]

They gave it all to me ... I don't deserve it

[bass x2]

There's nothing left of me, I'm just another servant
There's nothing wrong with may
I just want one more day,
another day to stay alive.

to stay alive
to stay alive
to stay alive
to stay alive

04 October 2004 Tiger maul Roy

Ahhh justice ... it can be so sweet sometimes.

I just found out on the BBC that Roy (from Siegfried & Roy) was attacked last night by one of his precious, white tigers.

Apparently he's in critical condition and I am hoping that he dies.

This man has spent his life preforming shows with these rare tigers and while this is cute and funny and entertaining for an audience of humans, this is not the proper life for a tiger, nor any animal. Given the choice, I'm sure each and every one of those tigers would choose the wild over their cage.

But they are not given a choice.

If you take away freedom, you take away the soul.

*Update*
I was harsh in saying that Roy should die. No one deserves death and I am sorry for wishing this upon him. He deserves to be caged and put on display but not to die.
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